Hope is addicting. It keeps you going. You look for it everywhere and will accept the tiniest morsel. You can put your hope in many things–people, nature–but those do not have an eternal, non-ending supply of hope. Those will fail and fall short eventually and they don’t have your best interest at heart. To some, believing in the unknown is any bad four-letter word ready to spew us out like sour milk. To others, hope is l-o-v-e. Undying devotion to a divine promise.
I believe I was born with hope. I don’t have a wiz-bang, up-from-the-ashes conversion testimony. I’m pretty boring when it comes to that. I’m more of a day-to-day, one-on-one, live-my-simple-life-as-best-as-I-can-with-Jesus kind of testimony. I’ve always believed in Jesus–His story, love, hope, and heaven. And I look for Him and what He’s doing everywhere. I want to know what He wants my part in His plan to be at that moment. That is adventurous living in my book.
The journal entries below are me praying to God and Him giving me hope through His Word. At the time of these entries, it is my family’s one-year anniversary of no job and hope was our only income. Here, hope is manifested in my new job, Greg’s next interview, and God’s promise for restoration and blessings. With hope, the outcome is always unknown, but the possibility of what God will do in the process is exciting and endless.
Monday, January, 13, 2003
Another good morning. Purpose ensues. I pray for continued awareness of my immediate purpose.
Wednesday, January 15, 2003
Thank You, Lord for taking me to Lucas Christian Academy. I was hired yesterday and it is clear that Your hand is over this. Thank You. Please let me let go & let You lead me through to find the right script first of all and then guide through each step that follows.
The sun shines today. My heart is glad & I can’t wait to tell of Your amazing story with me!
Yes, I continue to pray for Greg & his career opportunity. Please continue to progress his opportunity with Perot. Please alter Darcy’s opinion of Greg to a positive. Open his mind to see Greg’s accomplishments & possibilities.
We pray for swift movement with the Perot job for us.
In Your awesome power all is attainable!
Friday, Janauary 24, 2003
Could today be the day? Could today be the beginning of our end & beginning?
Dear Lord–How and what do I pray for now? I have continually asked & repented & given for over a year. I have learned considerable patience to the point where everything in life is bland. No need to get excited if it’s all going to dash–just wait. That is not me. I’m a passionate person.
Smiles are frequent usually, dancing unexpectedly is common & expected quite frankly. I have grown closer to You, but I’ve become a different person. I’m calm, but boring. I’m yearning, but not obviously. I’m here, but mute. Can we strike a balance? I want all the changes You’ve made in me, but I need to dance, Jesus. I need to dance from deep down within. With an obvious spring well of Your love from You. I won’t be quiet! I’ll praise You to everyone at every turn! Bless me today Lord with all of the blessings that You have been preparing all this time!
I pray that You prepare the hearts & minds of the men &/or women of Perot that who will meet with Greg today at lunch. PLEASE let them spark at Greg’s opportunities & his potential for positive leadership & growth for Perot. Move like a freight train, Lord!
A miracle on 24th Jan because…”all has ended now. The weeping of July, August, October and January have ended…your baskets will overflow.”
So much is riding on You Jesus. It’s been You only that we’ve relied on, please let everyone know that You are there for them too because You were there for us.
Amen (continued Jan. 24th)
I am quiet to hear You. Clear-headed. Quiet.
I had read Exodus 16 this morning (I began reading the Bible in a year) about You feeding the Isrealites with ‘manna from heaven.’ I also continued reading the books of the prophets. In Haggai 2 (after the previous chapter saying that August was not the right time to rebuild) You said, (3) “October remembers the temple as it was before…beautiful it will be again. Then, in December (10) You said that what was done before as a ‘service’ to You was wrong, but that it is (15) all is different now, you have begun to rebuild the temple. (16) Whereas before You expected a 20-bushel crop, there were only ten. (18,19) But now note this: From today, this 24th day of the month, as the foundation of the Lord’s temple is finished & from this day onward, I will bless you. Notice, I am giving you this promise even before you have begun to rebuild the Temple structure & before you have harvested the grain.”
Then in the next book of Zechariah 3:7-10, “The Lord Almighty declares: ‘If you will follow the paths I set for you and do all I tell you to, then I will put you in charge of my temple, to keep it holy…Don’t you see?–Joshua represents my servant the Branch whom I will send. He will be the Foundation Stone of the Temple that Joshua is standing beside & I will engrave this inscription seven times: I WILL REMOVE THE SINS OF THIS LAND IN A SINGLE DAY. And after that, the Lord Almighty declares, ‘You will live in peace & prosperity & each of you will own a home of your own where you can invite your neighbors.'”
The 4th chapter describes visions that angels gave Zecheriah about the (2) ‘gold lamp stand holding 7 lamps & at the top there is a reservoir for the olive oil that feeds the lamps flowing into them from 7 tubes.’ (11) Then Zecheriah asked the angel about the ‘two olive trees on each side of the lamp stand & about the 2 olive branches that emptied oil into gold bowls through 2 gold tubes (13) ‘Don’t you know?’ the angel asked. ‘No sir,” I (Zech) said. (14) Then he told me, ‘They represent the 2 anointed ones who assist the Lord of all the earth.’
There are more visions in Chapters 5 & 6. Chpater 7 tells to keep all promises of God; follow His commands exactly or it will all deplete. And finally, Chapter 8 leads to God being angry at what everyone has done wrong to her (Jeruselum). The Lord Almighty says, ‘Get on with the job & finish it! You have been listening long enough! For since you began laying the foundation of the Temple, the prophets have been telling you about the blessings that await you when its finished. Before the work began there were no jobs, no wages, no security.’
It ends with the 11-23 verses about the end of fasting & the promised prosperity!!!
So sayeth the Lord to me this morning. Thank You, Jesus. I pray to You humbly, excitedly & with great ancipatoon.
I pray for courage with accepting Your answer & for abiding Your commands exactly forever.
I dance for You!