LOOKS LIKE WE MADE IT (cue 80s song now)


Next to raising our three children, I am most proud of my marriage.  Greg and I have been married for almost 26 years and we know that God is the answer.  Throughout our journey of numerous job losses, setbacks, financial struggles and the teenage years WE MADE IT!  Now, empty-nesting in our town home, out of debt and, as Greg says, ‘On a date every day,’ we constantly look at each other, fist bump & say, WE MADE IT!  We raised three beautiful children who know and follow Jesus and we made it through IT ALL stronger and victorious!  How?  What’s the secret to marriage success?  Jesus.  Ask Him into your marriage.  Pray out loud with each other often~ our hearts speak differently while in prayer and with the one we love (you think sex is intimate, wait til you pray together).  Warning–you must have courage to obey when God answers.

MyRedJournals is my day-to-day invitation to God to control my life.  It’s not always pretty.  I do gnash teeth.  But now, I sit on this side & say WE MADE IT!  Lord, I pray for my marriage’s next 26 years.  Your will and protection always, dear Lord.

MyRedJournals continued…(please refer to first blog post & read to most current post to follow chronologically).

Wednesday, September 18, 2002

Oh dear Jesus, I pray with my whole heart that You be with Greg right now during his interview in NYC with Oracle.  Lord, put Your presence throughout that office.  Be with Greg’s thoughts, actions & words.  Open doors.  Create opportunities.  Discover potential! Thank You for Your peace right now.  Thank You for excitement of the future that You will put us in.

Please give Greg a sense of peace & calm & confidence directly from You.  Amen.  (Cody & I learned Sunday, after he received his new Bible from Big Daddy & Velma, that ‘Amen’ means ‘it is true.’)

What You say, what You do, what You set up now to be true in the future ‘is true’–Amen!

“Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.”  Psalm 119:105.  Sung at our wedding & never more true.

Thank You, Jesus, for letting Greg and I grow closer to You together and with our children during this journey.

Greg just called.   Oracle is going to give him a job offer!  “Our God is an awesome God, He reigns from heaven above, with wisdom, power & love our God is an awesome God!”

Thank You.  Praise You.  Exalt Your Holy Name, Jesus!  Shout from the rooftops!

Friday, September 20, 2002

Lord, I should be so excited thankful, relieved & happy because our prayers are almost answered.  Instead I’m scared, nervous & weepy.  The overriding problem is the absolute desperation & loneliness I feel about Lena & her struggles with math.  Lord, after all that we have been praying for over the past 8 months, I now lay more problems at Your feet.  Please send an angel to help my daughter.  Please ignite the desire to learn without excuses inside of her.  Help her to form her thoughts, focus, have opinions, work with excellence.  We need You so much now!

I am handling everything all wrong.  Control me, my tongue & actions.  Give me the methods to help her, please.

That's the look Lena, on the right, would give when working on Math.  I'm sure actually what's happening here is that Liza, on the left, is gloating a bit, thinking that she's the one who soothed her crying brother.

That’s the look Lena, on the right, would give when working on Math. I’m sure actually what’s happening here is that Liza, on the left, is gloating a bit, thinking that she’s the one who soothed her crying brother.


Lena, Greg & I can say WE MADE IT too!!  Lena passed her very last & final math course of her life last semester in college.  She will graduate next December from Texas State with a Dance Major & Business Minor!!  Take that -ZAP, POW-Arithmatic!!*#@!!

Lena, Greg & I can say WE MADE IT too!! Lena passed her very last & final math course of her life last semester in college. She will graduate next December from Texas State with a Dance Major & Business Minor!! Take that Math-ZAP, POW!!*#@!!

Soon we will move to a house, maybe the house on St. James, and we will transfer schools.  Lead us again, Lord.  Send us to the right place, the right teachers.  Settle us.  Plant us.  Grow us.  Don’t uproot us.  Give us the courage to accept Your answers.

My soul is unsettled.  I feel the devil trying to take hold.  You will banish Him.  Because we are so near to You, because we want to be so close to You, because we are about to take the big step of accepting Your wishes, evil is trying to put doubt & hate in the picture.  Shut the door on doubt & fear.  Hold me close & lead me to Your path for me & my family.

I love my family so very much, Jesus.  Thank You for Your Holy Spirit.  I need Your Holy Spirit every minute today.  Paint a clear picture for us.  Make each aspect of all upcoming decisions crystal clear;  job, salary package, house & school.  Leave nothing to chance.  Send us confirmation.  It is in Your Holy name I pray & it is with Your Holy Spirit that I continue.

Sunday, September 22, 2002

Dear Lord, last Thursday & Friday have been so strange.  Lord, I repent that I have sinned.  I am ashamed that I let worry & fear rule me & not You.  How could I doubt that I would be given peace about all of the final decisions just as you’ve given all this time.  I guess it’s the permanence of these decision.   No longer are we leasing or temporary.

Thank You for giving us, me time those past few months to know where we want to be & where You want us.  You knew that I would need time to circle about, research, discover, ponder everything about living in Lucas.  You are so amazing for me!

Lord, I pray for Your Holy Spirit over me this week as we look into the house (wow, that’s exciting to say!).  Banish all fear, leave only peace & happiness.  Lord, lead us to the right schools.  We pray for teachers, administrators, systems & the full package for the kids, all 3!

I have looked into several possibilities (private, a little of home schooling, Frisco system) & know that none of these choices are for us.  What I don’t know is if the McKinney schools are the right place.  Lord, answer with confirmation if these schools are right for our family.  Will the middle and high school be right?  Only You can help us & lead us.  Please take all worry away, far away.  I can’t solve these worries, believe me, I’ve been trying.  I need You, as always.

Forgive me of my sinful ways (how quickly I can turn) and grant me Your grace.  Turn Your face to me.  Hold me steadfast, push me in the right direction.  Be my feet & hands & definitely control my thoughts, mouth & actions.

I am Your servant, dear Jesus, what will You have me do?

Yeah God!  Thank You for granting a baby girl for Ken & Angie!  I pray that the adoption & time in Oklahoma goes smooth.  I pray for the birth mom.  Give her peace & a face turned towards You.  Please, surround Your presence over Ken & Angie & their baby, Zoe.



Led to Lead

Me performing as the head of an orphanage in our church musical, "A Time for Christmas."  That's tiny little Cody in the blue nightgown on the left and Liza on my right.  Lena isn't in this shot, but we all danced and sang with wooden spoons about how God would provide our breakfast--in an English accent, no less:)

Me performing as the head of an orphanage in our church musical, “A Time for Christmas.” That’s tiny little Cody in the blue nightgown on the left and Liza on my right. Lena isn’t in this shot, but we all danced and sang “With a Little Bit of Faith” with wooden spoons about how God would provide our breakfast–in an English accent, no less:)

A verse from my 2002 prayer journal from Joshua 1:6 (below) says, ‘you will be a successful leader of my people.’ I have been honored to teach children and adults of all ages and talent levels that they can dance.  Claiming ‘two left feet’ is not an excuse, merely a challenge.   Thank you, God for leading me to lead.

I hope you are enjoying looking back into MyRedJournals and seeing how God answers prayers and that by learning about His Word, He brings us closer to Him.

Tuesday, September 10, 2002

Today’s Daily Bread is from Romans 5:25:  “For because of our faith, He has brought us into this place of highest privilege where we now stand, and we confidently & joyfully look forward to actually becoming all that God has in mind for us to be.  We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems & trials for we know that they are good for us–they help us learn to be patient.  And patience develops strength of character in us & helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope & faith are strong & ready.  Then, when that happens, we are able to hold our heads high no matter what happens & know that all is well for we know how dearly God loves us & we feel this warm love everywhere within us because God has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with His love.”

“Don’t be selfish; don’t live to make a good impression on others.  Be humble thinking of others as better than yourself.  Don’t just think about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too & in what they are doing.”    Philippian 2:3-4

I will send a letter to Jill with this verse because it speaks.


A small in church in Allen displays a mini Arlington Memorial each Independence Day. Photo credit: PorchBaby

September 11, 2002

Dear Jesus, I pray for our country.  Please give us peace.  Please help us as a nation to look to You, Jesus Christ, for understanding and comfort.  I pray for all of the families of the victims that they may find strength through Your goodness.  Carry them gently through.  I pray for President Bush.  Give him courage to say Your name, Jesus!  And to seek Your guidance continually as he leads our country and fights evil.  I pray for our attackers, Jesus.  Impress in their hearts to wash away their evil instincts.  Plant seeds instead that will sprout gardens of love for life & You.  I pray for Isreal, Iraq & Iran & Afghanistan.  Instill love for one another, because out of our faith, hope & love the greatest of these is love.


I pray for the spiritual revival that has begun will be the only fires we see in America and across the world!  I pray for the average person to speak boldly of Your name–me included!  I pray that the evil resistance we have towards ‘in God we trust’ & ‘one nation under God’ in our long-standing public documents & pledges will be defeated!  May we always be able to say ‘in God we trust’ and  may we affirmatively, in this nation & the world, claim You, Jesus Christ, as our Lord & Savior!

Jesus, Bless America!

September 13, 2002

Never give up.  Keep the faith…in You & in Your planfor me, Greg, our family & potential companies of employment (& how we can minister & be ministered); for Your ultimate purpose in putting people in certain places & situations.

Lord, please be with Greg’s colleague from EDS who was just in another car accident.  Put Your arms around him, his wife & daughter.  Knock on their hearts so that they know You are there & that You love them.

Lord, I pray for our children.   Please put a drive in Lena for improving her English & Math grades. Be with me as I assist her with her studies and homework; I can be harsh & impatient without Your hands holding me.

I pray for Liza.  May she continue to do well with her grades & compassion.  Thank You for her innate compassion.

Lord, I pray for Cody.  May he also continue to do well in school.  He really listens & takes corrections well.  I pray that his confidence continues to blossom.

Lord, I am so proud of Cody being baptized this Sunday.  he is a smart, sensitive, understanding son with a true heart for You.  May he enjoy his public confession of faith & may this be the beginning of a long life of discipleship & closeness to You.

Monday, September 16, 2002

“Be strong and brave, for you will be a successful leader of my people, and they shall conquer all the land I promised to their ancestors.”  Joshua 1:6

I will continue to pray like the nagging woman in Luke 18:1-8.  Lord, hear my prayer.

Lord, thank you for watching me.  Holding me.  Your power & love is vast for me & so many I care for & know about.  Your plan for me and everyone around the world is exciting to watch You were in the fires & destruction of the WTC.  You are moving the world toward Isreal as You said would be true.  Through hess worldly events & technology, internet, email, advancements in transportation, medicine, You move toward Your goal, all the while meeting our trivial requests for our small ives.  You are the color fuchsia & periwinkle.  You are the vibrancy in little babies’ eyes.  You are all that is good & right & necessary.  And You love me.  You make me feel important, special, unique.  You’ve given me excitement about the gifts You’ve given me that it’s hard to be humble.  I pray to humble.  I feel You leading me to be more humble.

Lord, here is my request…again.  You’ve heard it, I’ve said many, many ways & time & time again.  Your will be done… with y talents, Greg’s job, our home, our kids, us as a family.  We pray for Greg to have a job by the end of this September.  We pray for a house for us to prosper, in Jesus’ name.  And we pray for Lena & Liza & Cody to be in a school where they, too can learn & work & use their talents for You.

I pray for courage for all of us to accept Your answer & the world’s reaction to our decision.  Oh, the things You have in store for us! I can’t wait to see what You’ve got!