Led to Lead

Me performing as the head of an orphanage in our church musical, "A Time for Christmas."  That's tiny little Cody in the blue nightgown on the left and Liza on my right.  Lena isn't in this shot, but we all danced and sang with wooden spoons about how God would provide our breakfast--in an English accent, no less:)

Me performing as the head of an orphanage in our church musical, “A Time for Christmas.” That’s tiny little Cody in the blue nightgown on the left and Liza on my right. Lena isn’t in this shot, but we all danced and sang “With a Little Bit of Faith” with wooden spoons about how God would provide our breakfast–in an English accent, no less:)

A verse from my 2002 prayer journal from Joshua 1:6 (below) says, ‘you will be a successful leader of my people.’ I have been honored to teach children and adults of all ages and talent levels that they can dance.  Claiming ‘two left feet’ is not an excuse, merely a challenge.   Thank you, God for leading me to lead.

I hope you are enjoying looking back into MyRedJournals and seeing how God answers prayers and that by learning about His Word, He brings us closer to Him.

Tuesday, September 10, 2002

Today’s Daily Bread is from Romans 5:25:  “For because of our faith, He has brought us into this place of highest privilege where we now stand, and we confidently & joyfully look forward to actually becoming all that God has in mind for us to be.  We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems & trials for we know that they are good for us–they help us learn to be patient.  And patience develops strength of character in us & helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope & faith are strong & ready.  Then, when that happens, we are able to hold our heads high no matter what happens & know that all is well for we know how dearly God loves us & we feel this warm love everywhere within us because God has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with His love.”

“Don’t be selfish; don’t live to make a good impression on others.  Be humble thinking of others as better than yourself.  Don’t just think about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too & in what they are doing.”    Philippian 2:3-4

I will send a letter to Jill with this verse because it speaks.


A small in church in Allen displays a mini Arlington Memorial each Independence Day. Photo credit: PorchBaby

September 11, 2002

Dear Jesus, I pray for our country.  Please give us peace.  Please help us as a nation to look to You, Jesus Christ, for understanding and comfort.  I pray for all of the families of the victims that they may find strength through Your goodness.  Carry them gently through.  I pray for President Bush.  Give him courage to say Your name, Jesus!  And to seek Your guidance continually as he leads our country and fights evil.  I pray for our attackers, Jesus.  Impress in their hearts to wash away their evil instincts.  Plant seeds instead that will sprout gardens of love for life & You.  I pray for Isreal, Iraq & Iran & Afghanistan.  Instill love for one another, because out of our faith, hope & love the greatest of these is love.


I pray for the spiritual revival that has begun will be the only fires we see in America and across the world!  I pray for the average person to speak boldly of Your name–me included!  I pray that the evil resistance we have towards ‘in God we trust’ & ‘one nation under God’ in our long-standing public documents & pledges will be defeated!  May we always be able to say ‘in God we trust’ and  may we affirmatively, in this nation & the world, claim You, Jesus Christ, as our Lord & Savior!

Jesus, Bless America!

September 13, 2002

Never give up.  Keep the faith…in You & in Your planfor me, Greg, our family & potential companies of employment (& how we can minister & be ministered); for Your ultimate purpose in putting people in certain places & situations.

Lord, please be with Greg’s colleague from EDS who was just in another car accident.  Put Your arms around him, his wife & daughter.  Knock on their hearts so that they know You are there & that You love them.

Lord, I pray for our children.   Please put a drive in Lena for improving her English & Math grades. Be with me as I assist her with her studies and homework; I can be harsh & impatient without Your hands holding me.

I pray for Liza.  May she continue to do well with her grades & compassion.  Thank You for her innate compassion.

Lord, I pray for Cody.  May he also continue to do well in school.  He really listens & takes corrections well.  I pray that his confidence continues to blossom.

Lord, I am so proud of Cody being baptized this Sunday.  he is a smart, sensitive, understanding son with a true heart for You.  May he enjoy his public confession of faith & may this be the beginning of a long life of discipleship & closeness to You.

Monday, September 16, 2002

“Be strong and brave, for you will be a successful leader of my people, and they shall conquer all the land I promised to their ancestors.”  Joshua 1:6

I will continue to pray like the nagging woman in Luke 18:1-8.  Lord, hear my prayer.

Lord, thank you for watching me.  Holding me.  Your power & love is vast for me & so many I care for & know about.  Your plan for me and everyone around the world is exciting to watch You were in the fires & destruction of the WTC.  You are moving the world toward Isreal as You said would be true.  Through hess worldly events & technology, internet, email, advancements in transportation, medicine, You move toward Your goal, all the while meeting our trivial requests for our small ives.  You are the color fuchsia & periwinkle.  You are the vibrancy in little babies’ eyes.  You are all that is good & right & necessary.  And You love me.  You make me feel important, special, unique.  You’ve given me excitement about the gifts You’ve given me that it’s hard to be humble.  I pray to humble.  I feel You leading me to be more humble.

Lord, here is my request…again.  You’ve heard it, I’ve said many, many ways & time & time again.  Your will be done… with y talents, Greg’s job, our home, our kids, us as a family.  We pray for Greg to have a job by the end of this September.  We pray for a house for us to prosper, in Jesus’ name.  And we pray for Lena & Liza & Cody to be in a school where they, too can learn & work & use their talents for You.

I pray for courage for all of us to accept Your answer & the world’s reaction to our decision.  Oh, the things You have in store for us! I can’t wait to see what You’ve got!


Boredom & Baptism


Oh the highs & lows of the Christian walk.  Almost 12 months into our no job/no income/job searching/fervently praying journey, boredom took root in 2002.  No matter how chaotic life gets, laundry and the mundane must still be done.  At the same time, my son decides, like a bloom stretching through numbing snow, to be baptized.  He is the rose, the snow is me.

ADORABLE!  Cody wasn't much older than this when he told our pastor, "Jesus is the answer" and was baptized.

ADORABLE! Cody wasn’t much older than this when he told our pastor, “Jesus is the answer” and was baptized.

My True Texan, Summer, 2013

My True Texan, Summer, 2013

Cody & my dad this past summer in Waco at Cody's select game for the McKinney Marshalls.  Big Daddy, as the grandkids call him, is a Godly influence through his daily living.

Cody & my dad this past summer in Waco at Cody’s select game for the McKinney Marshalls. Big Daddy, as the grandkids call him, is a Godly influence through his daily living & witnessed Cody’s baptism & can testify to Cody’s heart & calling.

Cody playing Igor, ala 'Young Frankenstein', in my & my cousin's play, "Clue: Stage Fright Tonight!"

Cody playing Igor, ala ‘Young Frankenstein’, in my & my cousin’s play, “Clue: Stage Fright Tonight!” Hilarity at its funniest!!!!!

Among the drab, monotonous, daily living that can be our faith walk, are the jewels presented as undeserved gifts from God & our children.

My Red Journal continued…..

Monday, September 2, 2002

Boredom as set in.

Tuesday, Sept. 3, 2002

Thank You, Lord for sending us to the Academy of Dance Arts!  You made it very clear, through all other doors being closed, to opening this dance studio up to us!  The girls will get great training there & maybe I’ll get a chance someday.

Lord, I pray more than ever for Greg.  Depression has hit.  We have 15 days until his interview in NYC with Oracle & from hearing the outcome of Perot’s 10th & 11th meeting.  Another 2 weeks to wait!

This apartment has gotten small, one car has become stifling, as well as one cell phone, and not knowing the future has gotten almost unbearable.  Greg and I keep each other cheered up & looking continually to Your face, but there’s nothing left to say now.

We wait.

Please pour Your comfort & blessings on Greg, Lord.  The spiritual cheerleader in me is tired.  Oh how we need You.  Please guard our finances.  And help the kids make it through.

We have no doubts in You, dear Jesus.

Monday, September 9, 2002

Jesus, You answered my prayer & prepared my heart for my trip to NYC with my mom & sisters.  Thank You.  We had a wonderful time!  You also are answering my prayer to become closer to Jill.  I feel a spark of connection & willingness to understand between us.  I no longer have to say that ‘they don’t know who I am.’  I continue to pray for them & their walk with You.

Lord, Your plan surpasses all understanding.  I can’t wait to see how Your plan for our lives will weave into Your ultimate plan.  Jesus, I still pray for courage to accept Your answer.  Please, take away all fear & doubting.  Please, teach me to be humble & not boastful–it’s very hard for me when I’m excited about how You put everything together & that You would use me to do it!

Oh, Jehovah, it is glorious that my son will be baptized in Your name this Sunday.  I know You have special plans for him, Lord; he knows it, too.  May Cody enter his public confession of faith with true understanding of You.  Thank You for the gift of my son.

Lord, I pray that You help me to memorize verses.  It’s very difficult for me.  I suppose I’m lazy.  My favorite verse is, “I can do all things through Jesus Christ, who strengthens me.”  Philippians 4:13

A new one to memorize, “Don’t let others spoil Your faith & joy with their philosophies, their wrong & shallow answers built on men’s thoughts & ideas, instead of on what Christ has said.” Colossians 3:8

Lord, like Peter, I turned away from You @ Ground Zero.  When there was a group gathered & praying I chose to not publicly bow my head to You.  I couldn’t bring myself to do that in front of my sisters & mom.  I am so sorry.  I pray heavily for courage to praise You at all times.  Please help me, Lord, for I am weak.  I am weak.