Read today’s blog and it seems that God was answering all of our long-awaited prayers. And according to these journal entries, He was..a job after a year of searching, moving back to Texas from Canada into a month-to-month apartment and now preparing us to move into our dream home & a good school. But none of this came true. Not that job, that house or that school.
God had a much better plan. His plan, always at work, included so much more than the paychecks and mortar (of course, I shouldn’t worry about such things and should do as the flowers and birds and know that God will provide water, food and shelter). We were by no means hungry, in danger or roofless. But, come on! A year! We had been job hunting, living in a temporary state of the unknown, clinging to God’s every word for so long. We called our Frisco apartment ‘John’s cell’ where we were dependent on God in a hovel. And we kept telling our kids ‘God is gonna, God is gonna’. Ok, so go already!
And then the apparent end is in sight! All questions answered in a neat package. The next blog post will show that wasn’t true.
Now, way on the other side of ‘the journey,’ God’s plan was perfection, as always. So rich. Full of gems that couldn’t be unearthed without the wasteland. Like my Liza’s Jesus moment in 5th grade (see below). She gave her heart to Jesus while she lay in the bedroom she shared with Lena and their matching butter yellow matellasse coverlets. That isn’t the only time she committed. Lena and Liza describe how they went forward (or actually down the multiple flights of stairs and onto the arena floor) at a Billy Graham event at Texas Stadium as grade schoolers and publicly accepted Jesus. Don’t we honestly accept Him over and over? Like a child, we say ‘yes’ every time.
Liza’s heart for Jesus now is exquisite. She has believed since she was little and then her fire blazed strong the summer before college. So much like Greg, she is a quick study & has taken every nuance God has taught her, internalized it and put it to quick action. She is what I call ‘a kamikaze prayer warrior.’ She’ll pray with anyone she sees needs prayer, diving in, ready to give of herself completely for the Cause. Oh Lord, cover her as she does Your bidding.
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
All that Greg and I could say yesterday was “You are awesome!” We saw the house on St. James again Monday & Tuesday and it feels right. The realtor showed us homes that were bigger, more nooks & crannies, more trees, but this house is the one You planned for us. Our miracle home. It has a future. We can create our own style with this land & home. We feel that settling anywhere else would be going against what You have made clear is what’s right for us. We want to honor You & do what is asked of us & offered to us.
And then there’s the schools. After last’s week’s phone call with Lena’s math teacher, many concerns & questions created panic in my heart. So I checked on all of our options. Private schools are not around–not Christian without uniforms & not close enough. I’ve thought through home schooling and still know that it’s not for us. So McKinney is it. We were thrilled to find that Lena will be going to a new Jr. High. But the elementary for Liza and Cody is where You worked Your wonders. The school that we saw was disgusting. After no other options being available, we went to look again & found the other new, remodeled side. Wow! And then we met the Principal. She is going to be a God-send. I asked You while in the office of that school to change my heart & You did. So much so that I am excited. In fact, we get to pick their teachers! You are awesome. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You! I want to tell everyone our testimony about how You worked everything. We asked the mountain to move with only our faith because You said we could. Ask in faith, confidence & assuredness. Ask continually, unwavering & steadfast. Believe through it all. Call on the Comforter all the while. Dismiss all doubt around you. Cling to you Christian friends. Read the Word. Let my Friend guide as He wishes and be awed that even after all of these blessings coming to fruition, all because we asked to serve & believed, that He still has more incredible plans for our lives. For my life. “And I say Wow!”
Where’s the highest mountain that I may shout “Hallelujah!” and spread Your message?! Oh, that I might bring someone to Christ. Please.
Monday, September 30, 2002
Lord, tell me what to pray for. We wait again. Everything is lined up–the house, mortgage, schools; we just need the contract on the job.
Jesus said, through Paul, “Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
So we continue to be very thankful for all that You have done & will do. We will pray over & over for Your will to be done. We remain steadfast in You. I am finite, You are infinite. I am weak and need Your energy to keep going & praying. I am submissive to Your will.
Lord Jesus, I pray for Your guiding hand over the choreography of the musical today. I always look so forward to creating for You; spending a Holy Spirit-filled time with You. The high that I get from You working through me is outstanding & incredible. This time I need to give more public thanks to You for Your gifts. I pray for Your presence today. I pray for focus. I pray for organization. I pray for creativity! Through You I can do anything!
I pray to be an active listener & not a passive listener of You.
In Jesus’ name
Monday, October 7, 2002
Dear Lord, I have so much to be thankful for this day What a wonderful weekend full of laughter and celebrations. First & foremost, a ‘Yea God’ for answered prayer #1: as quoted from Liza about me, “You were a messenger.” Yesterday You taught Liza a valuable lesson to ‘let go & let God’ and You let me be the messenger of the good news!
For the past two weeks, Liza has been in an awful mood. Last night was the final straw & I left her in her room to calm down. Later when I went to check on her, as You told me to instead of unloading the dishwasher, I had a revelation. you helped me to realize that all the frustrations & struggles Liza was going through these past few weeks was due to Liza trying to solve all of her problems herself & not letting You do it for her. Wow! Once I told her all of that, her beautiful big eyes wet with tears, got ‘it’ & truly understood that there is no way without You. She prayed & gave it all up to You. Thank You. Now I will pray again that You give Liza peace over what she can’t control & please guide her path of her life & Your purpose for her. Take her struggles away. Thank You for teaching her that angst feeling of the devil trying to do it all so that next time she can stop again & pray ‘Let go & let God!”
Then, Lord Jesus, Lena asked to talk because she feels left out. Liza just had a ‘yea God’, Cody got baptized & Greg & I are walking with You. Lord, she’s on the edge ready to commit to You. She said she knows fear is in her way from accepting You in her heart. Oh, Lord, work on her heart. Push the devil far away. Help her to this defining moment that she will give all of herself to You. Just now, you reminded me of something You have taught me about Lena through those past 11 years; Lena always gives an initial indication that ‘the big step’ is going to happen at any moment & then it doesn’t happen until moths later (such as taking her first step, potty training, reading, learning multiplication, commitment to dance). You are telling me to be patient…again. Okay. I trust You & pray that You take all fear away, far, far away. And thank You for giving Greg & I the words to talk with Lena about accepting You. Lord, Greg & I both prayed that we could help bring someone to You , but we didn’t know it would be our own daughter. Thank You. On my knees, thank You.
Finally, thank You for all that You gave me for the musical. We are cooking! You were all over the weekend, & prior, to put together some awesome stuff for the play. And we had a blast learning, as usual. Laugh, laugh, laugh! You are awesome! Amen.
Today’s Dailey Bread led me here to Zechariah 8:11-23. It’s a long one, but here are Your main points: 12 “For I am sowing peace & prosperity among you. Your crops will prosper, the grapevines will be weighted down with fruit; 13…For now ‘Judah’ is a word of blessing, not a curse. ‘May you be as prosperous as Judah is,’ they’ll say. 14,15 …I did what I said I would…16 Here is your part: Tell the truth. Be fair. Live at peace with everyone. 18 Here is another message that came to me from the Lord Almighty: 19The traditional fasts & times of mourning you have kept in July, August, October and January are ended They will be changed to joyous festivals if you love truth & peace!”
The rest of the scripture talks of people from around the world going to Jerusalem to attend theses celebrations. I feel You are telling me to replace ‘your house’ with ‘Jerusalem.’ That we will be immensely blessed and will bless others. Thank You, thank You. Praise You, oh heavenly Father! You woke me up at 5:30am “Get up! There is so much to be thankful for! Let’s go!
“And I say, Wow!”