Doggy Dreams – Praying in Our Puppy

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Read My Red Journals below and you’ll see that our family prayed for God to send us a puppy back on April 30, 2003.

Quick recap of my family twelve years ago: no job, no money–at all, 3 elementary kids & hubby & I living in a month-to-month ‘apostle John’-style apartment waiting on God to… to… to do something.  Ok, not just something but get us out! Out of debt. Into a job. Out the apartment. Into a home. Out of ‘I have no clue about our future.’ Into ‘Yes, we can commit to that thing on the calendar because we have a glimpse of what is to come.’

With all of our prayer requests and in need of so many basics, we dared to ask our heavenly Father for one more ‘pie in the sky’ thing–A puppy. We wanted a dog for my kids to grow up with and that I wouldn’t be allergic to. In usual God fashion, He delivered big time. Meet Lucy.

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She picked us, honestly. The day our family of five crawled on the floor to visit a puppy I saw online, the breeder also brought another puppy whom she thought would suit our family’s silly style a little better. As I held the chosen online docile pup, Lucy crawled into my lap, looked up, licked my nose and said, ‘Take me home.” Our hearts melted. Lucy adopted herself into our family.

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On the way home I named her Lucy after Lucy Ricardo because, like Lucille Ball’s character, our dog is red-headed and funny. Her kooky character came out more and more througout the years and we have a doghouse full of stories about…

…her mischievous, stealth-like sneakiness,

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…her convulsive appetite for steak (she literally shakes all over in anticipation of eating steak!), and the way she ministers to us daily with snuggles.

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My Red Journals continues

Thursday, April 17, 2003

In Jesus name I pray for our trip to Austin. Please pour Your blessings on our visit. Grant us safe travel. Please hold all tongues from argument. Let there be only joy & play. Introduce something new. Tell us how we can live there.

Our spririts are high & filled with the Holy Spirit & we confidently wait for Your answer to our lives.

Where will You plant us? Will there be a family dog? Will I own a studio? We have faith in You answering our prayers. Hopefully, they will be the answers that we think we want.

Your Servant.

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Thank You, Jesus, for 15 wonderful years of marriage to the man You provided for me. Thank You for our growth together toward You. I pray that our marriage will continue to grow & thrive & that we will always look to You first before anything else.

Lord, Greg received a job offer yesterday with EDS. You do work in mysterious ways! I am first & foremost faithful to Your plan. It’s curious. We have been burned, but we go back armed with Your power to change & advance. Lord, I pray that the leadership at EDS will instill a dramactic plan of integrity & ethics & put the proper treatment of their employees above all greed and economizing. May Greg be a part–a big part of that plan!

We don’t know what kind of offer Steve will give & if they’ll ‘cowboy up’ and own up to their mistakes. I pray for Your voice, Jesus. Let us know if this is where You want us.

Honestly, I am a bit disappointed. I say that without even knowing the full outcome, but the dramatist in me wants the big gasp to catch my breath at the fullest, in one big fell swoop, of Your plan revealed! I want to jump to the sky with excitement! I want to run into the kids’ schools, get them out of class & say, “Our prayers were answered today!” I want to make a memory, spontanuously, of overflowing emotion & praise FOR YOU!

Instead, at the moment, I have the well-trained Wilk reserve…don’t party til the contract is signed.

I’ll PRAISE YOU NOW! You are my God! You have provided for me every day & moment. You taught me in a custom-designed academic class of life & love.

Let’s start making the party arrangements!

Moral authority requires character, sacrifice, time (from “Visioneering”)

Thank You for giving us this right.

Monday, April 28, 2003

Good morning, Lord. Did You get me up this moring? It’s been so long since I’ve woken before everyone else & spent time with You. Need to talk? I’m here to listen.

A party. We’re going to celebrate Your work & blessings & this journey. We’ll have friends & family around just so we can celebrate Your holiness, Your friendship & Your love. We’ll evangelize & realize all together. I pray You use this celebration for Your glory.

Praise You, Jesus. You are the way! You are letting me feel the rhythm inside. You are giving me the fire inside to dance. I can let go of the reigns of this journey. Thank you.

For today I pray for Your blessing & guidance for 1) the job contract–may it include all that You know we need to continue to do work for You; 2) a house; a home–lead us where we can settle & serve; 3) a dog–a new family member who can signify a new beginning & we can all live with allergy free!

Guide us through, Jesus. In Your Heavenly Name I dance!

Amen

Wednesday, April 30, 2003

Our family is poised to celebrate! (so are our friends at church & loved ones in Austin & New England!)

We wait on the letter of employment. We step in faith back into EDS. You have told us that if someone slaps one cheek, turn & give them the other…we’re obediant, dear Jesus.

I pray, dear dear Lord, for a dog for our family. I’d like to have a BIG announcement of the end of this journey for the kids. Dear God, please lead me to a dog for our family.

Your plan is holy; Your ways are righteous. We do not understand all, but we accept them with Your blessings.

I pray for Becky & Travis. Please keep Becky healthy through her pregnancy & lead Travis to a great job soon.

I forgot to thank You for leading me to Exodus 40 on Monday. You speak of exiting a journey & preparing, in detail, a big celebration! Wow! Wow! Wow! You are not silent. All glory to You.

My Comforter, My Provider, my Healer, my Teacher, my Father, my Friend, my Redeemer.

My Jesus.

Amen

Oh, yippee..long-suffering …but God…

IMG_0017As I type in my old journal entries below, even I am saying, “Geez! Get on with it already! We got it! They don’t have a job. Haven’t had it for over a year. Three kids in a tiny apartment. Life is hard. Wah, wah. Go on!” If this were a screenplay, I would chop out fifty pages of excruciatingly boring pleadings and cut to the ‘We got the job celebration scene.’ Well actually, before that, I might throw in a scene of me hurling a glass vase across the room, crashing it into a mirror to showcase my had-it-up-to-here moment. Then I would push the story along and keep my audience’s attention and fast forward about five years.

But that’s not real life with or without God. Real life without God in this 10+ years, no-job journey involves fear, worry, doubt, anxiousness, and anger at some point along the way–we can’t help it, we’re human.

Real life with God, honestly involves all those insecure emotions too. But God. God brings HOPE and assuredness. He takes a hopeless situation that we make worse by worrying and heeding false advice, and provides peace and a future.

“Mortals make elaborate plans, but God has the last word.” Proverbs 16:1

“Joseph answered, “Not I, but God, God will set Pharaoh’s mind at ease.” Genesis 41:16

But God reassured him, ‘Easy now. Don’t panic. You won’t die.” Judges 6:23

“Bad guys have it in for the good guys, obsessed with doing them in. But God isn’t losing any sleep; to Him they’re a joke with no punch line.” Psalm 37:12-13

“Make your motions and cast your votes, but God has the final say.” Proverbs 16:33

“You killed the author of life, but God raised him from the dead. We are witnesses of this.” Acts 3:15

“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26

But God will never forget the needy; the hope of the afflicted will never perish.” Psalm 9:18

On our own, we would have most likely found a job, earned some money, and muscled our way through our dire situation (albeit we wouldn’t be where we are now with our many bestowed blessing). But with God we carried peace, experienced joy, nestled in the Comforter’s embrace, and grew closer to the Creator of our futures.

Wednesday, April 2, 2003

Dear Lord~

The anxieties in my heart: 1) wanting to live in Austin with my family & the beautiful landscape; 2) my kids’ negative attitudes towards each other; 3)my weariness with this journey; 4) Greg’s & my outlook towards the discovery of this divine vision seem far apart, but so close at the same time right now.

Everything I’m grateful for: 1) all the amazing things going on in our world now. I can see past the war & the extreme, unfortunate sufferings. You are bringing peace You are lifting up & preparing Christians for Your cause. You are highlighting the immorality in business & leisure. Could Greg’s abilities & insights about integrity in business be primed & ready? You are returning our country to a simpler, other-focused time. 2) You protected Jill this past Sunday! Thank You for holding her close. 3) My job at LCA & how well the play is progressing. You really guide my every action when I’m doing these plays! I feel so close to You. 4) My Hip Hop group at church. They keep coming back & we’re having fun & they’re getting better.

Lord, if Austin is where You want us, please provide an opportunity to move there when school gets out for the summer.

Lastly, I pray for a good time & good weather for Alyson’s visit this weekend. I pray that she will be willing to attend service this Sunday.

I have been tired & angry. Thank You for waiting on me. Lead me, guide me, pour peace over me. Pour peace over our troops, the British forces, our leaders & our enemies & the people of Iraq. Your grace prevail over all gunfire, religious beliefs & stubbornness. Peace & Your face be seen by the POWs.

My heart is filled.

Amen

Tuesday, April 8, 2003

Dear Jesus~

Today I am excited to be here now having this time with You. My attitude lately has been shameful, bratty & unhealthy. I ask Your forgiveness & grace to pour over me & make me new. Take this over year-long journey & make me new. Cast the devil away. Don’t let evil penetrate my thoughts, tongue & actions. Teach me, love me, pull me close. Pour out over my husband. Give him peace & rebuke evil around him. Well within my children. Give them air beneath their wings that they may soar above all pain & angst.

Please be with me now as I go to Your Word. Lead & teach me.

After reading Revelations 21-22, I know that it is with You that I am to look toward for answers; not the world. How comforting it is for me to know that You will have this wonderful place for me. You conquered death for me & prepared Heaven for & my family. I am not afraid of this world; it has attempted to sting; evil has had its chance & failed! Ha! I walk by faith & not by sight.

“But you, man of God, flee from all this & pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance & gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.” 1 Timothy 6:11-12

Lord, I pray for Jason Eaton who is faithfully serving in the US Army in the Iraq war. I have committed through the Presidential Prayer Team to pray for Jason’s safety during this time. Lord, please protect, guide & minister to Jason. Give him comfort during such scary times. Also please be with his family, giving them peace & faces turned towards You & Your Word; assurance in Your plan.

Amen

Thursday, April 10, 2003

Dear Jesus~

You have renewed my spirit! I feel so light. I see purpose–purpose in waiting. As our family had our Bible study last night (a silly one; all in a giddy mood) I read from Philippians 4:10-20. In it, of course was ‘I can do all things through Jesus Christ which strengthens me’ (v13). You first led me to that verse in 1985 when I was in the Miss Austin Aqua Festival Pageant. I can remember being backstage, about to go on & those words popping into my head. Thank You. What a Comforter you are.

We are successful today!

Amen

Monday, April 14, 2003

Thank You for today. Fill my heart with gladness. Fill my mind with Your wisdom and knowledge. And hold my tongue, only letting it loose for necessity & kindness.

I pray You take hold of our children. No more arguing, attitude & ugly demeanor. Change their hearts. Change our tactics. Lead us to a place where our positive inner light can shine!

Amen

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Dear Jesus~

Lord, just as You give me a complete vision of a dance production or play choreography and set, etc, please give me the complete, unquestionable vision for our family’s life after this journey. Will we live in Austin? Where are Your answers for us?

In Nehemiah’s time & Joshua’s time, You put all circumstances in place for Your ultimate plan to come to fruition. Just as with what is going on now with our nation, President Bush, Iraq & the fall of Hussein. Your divine plan is the reason why the people of Iraq are liberated. Praise You, Jesus, for saving the Iraqis.

How are my circumstances lining up with Your divine plan? We are trying to raise our children in Your eyes for a divine future; we are living and abiding our marriage according to Your guidance; we are trying to travel this journey as testaments of Your grace & our faith in You. The final piece of the puzzle is Greg’s career & my career & how the two separately can work to minister & testify for You. We pray for the answer to this final puzzling question.

I know You are at work in the hearts of my family. Please let us be a daily, living testimony of Your love & grace. How will You place us in Austin if Greg is going to get a job offer with EDS here in Dallas? My heart, Lord, hurts. Heal me.

“Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature & complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, & it will be given to him.” James 1:4-5

“Blessed is the man who preservers under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.” James 1:12

Lord, thank You for letting me store treasure in Heaven. I pray for wisdom in these circumstances., dear Lord of the Highest, my Comforter.

I am Your servant. Send me.

Amen

 

Mustard Seed into Redwood

 

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Window Painting by my mother. Practical artwork–my dining room windows looked directly into the side of our neighbor’s house. I glued handmade papers to the windows and asked my mother to paint a scene across the three windows to create privacy & beauty. Also, it was an excuse to get my mom to Dallas, have our kids watch her create & have another lasting creation of hers of my own.

 

God plants in each zygote an idea, a desire.  Then we spend the rest of our lives discovering that seed.  Only Jesus can nourish that seed with living water.   If we have the faith of a mustard seed, we can command mountains to move.  So no surprise that this implanted embryonic desire for a specific ‘something’ that starts off small as a mustard seed, can grow into a mighty redwood, with its canopy placed sky high and its roots reaching deep and wide.

Give your life over to God.  Study His word and spend time over coffee with your new friend.  Through conversations, He will woo you and tell you sweet everythings about you.  As you tell Jesus how much you love Him, he tells You how he loves you more.  Then, as with all love relationships, He can’t wait to give you a gift that He has been preparing and planning for a long time.  He hints at, guides, and whispers the gift–your purpose–the implanted desire of your heart.  You clasp your hands in giddy excitement, grinning goofily with shocked amazement at the specific simplicity of it all.  You dive in.  You get to work, which runs through your body like play, and discover that your purpose, the thing that makes your heart sing, makes God smile and serves His kingdom.  Because everything we do is about love and bringing more people, with their tiny mustard seeds, to Him, ready and waiting to water, grow, and present His implanted gift to you.

Thank you for allowing me to attempt a little poetic proselytizing.  It is true.  God wants to give us the desire of our hearts.  In fact, He put those desires there just as He did our lungs, brains, fingers, toes, and brown, blue or hazel eyes.  Give up and give it over to God.  Crawl into His lap like a child and let Him take your worries.  He will smooth your hair, whisper sweet everythings, and water your deep-rooted mustard desire into solid redwoods.

MyRedJournals continues below with me, my family and God journeying through job loss and search…

Tuesday, January 28, 2003

Dear Lord,

Everything this journey is about is not for what You will do for me and my family, but how, after growing closer to You & learning to listen more astutely and rely and live on You–FAITH!–this journey is about what I am to do for You.

I am weak & small, but I know You’ll use me whenever, wherever for Your purpose.  I pray for courage to accept Your path & for a mind that never forgets what You have done for me (not like the Israelites–ungrateful babies).

Please Lord, be with Bob now during his back surgery.  Give him, Jill & the kids a peace & a knowing that You are with him.  I pray for a quick, pain-free recovery.

In Romans 5:1-5, You gave me this reminder in order to remain faithful to the lessons of this journey & to You!

“So now, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith in His promises, we can have real peace with Him because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.  For because of our faith, He has brought us into this place of highest privilege where we now stand, & we confidently & joyfully look forward to actually becoming all that God has had in mind for us to be .

We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems & trials for we know that they are good for us–they help us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope & faith are strong & steady.  Then, when that happens, we are able to hold our heads high no matter what happens & know that all is well, for we know how dearly God loves us & we feel this warm love everywhere within us because God has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with His love.”

Friday, January 31st, 2003

You are true to Your Word.  Greg will have an interview with Darcy next Thursday, Feb, 6th!  We know this is Your work.  You are showing Your hand of what You have been planning and the very exciting part of it all is it will  be the beginning of Your continual plan.  Thank You, Jesus!

Believing IS seeing.

Amen

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Another portion of the window art triptik, a three panel window covering made with handmade paper, and painted with my mother’s love.

February 3, 2003

“Praise Him from here below, praise Father, Son & Holy Ghost.”

Thank You, Jesus for all You provide–my wonderful marriage, which is centered around You; my amazing children, 3 gifts from You; our health, especially without health or car insurance; & this journey, with its sole purpose to grow closer to You & to discover what I can do for You.

Lord, this morning I pray for Your vision for me.  What will You have me do for You?  I believe that You have begun to make it clear–the beginning.  I pray to know Your vision; Your will.

Amen

Thursday, February 6, 2003

“Everything is possible, in Him all is possible.  Everything you have to do, cast your fears away.”

Peace.  Knowing. Understanding.  Resolution.  Singing birds outside my window.  Faith in you.  My mustard seed has sprouted like a redwood.  Purpose:  to love & serve You.  Wow!

“Yes I will bless the Lord & not forget the glorious things He does for me.” Psalm 103:2

Walk before Greg today at his interview with Perot.  Peace, focus & Your plan unveiling before our eyes.

Thank You now for using the weak.

Amen